I’ve written a lot about transformation during the past year because I started working on that journey seriously in January. Yesterday I went shopping. It was an eye opener. After having lost 45 pounds, I found that my former haunts were no longer mine. Over the years I had gotten so accustomed to being a certain size and shape that automatically when shopping I gravitated towards the same sort of clothing.
Yesterday, I had to redirect myself away from the XL clothes, which would have bagged and dragged along after me. Instead, I headed to the size mediums—a huge breakthrough for me. In my past with the XL’s, my main goal was to find what covered me up the best. In some instances I had pushed past XL to a size XXL, so there was also a challenge to figure out which size I could actually fit. Generally at the XXL sixe, I would just leave the store to go find a store specializing in vanity sizing, wherein I could fit an XL. Now I’m no longer engaged in that sort of inner conflict. Still, I haven’t gone near a size medium in almost ten years yet that is my new size.
So, I stocked up on medium blouses at a thrift shop yesterday, knowing I’m still in transition and don’t want to invest in brand new clothing that will no longer fit in a few months. I received an additional pleasant surprise this morning when I found that my bra size had been reduced by a few sizes. Incredibly, I also discovered today that my jeans were down 5 whooping sizes since January. I'm feeling thankful I stored up all these clothes nearly a decade ago in plastic bins.
You all know that I had gone fishing for a while. When out and away from home it is easy to find excuses to return to your guilty pleasures. For me though, being very overweight is not a pleasure so I chose not to indulge in food. Instead, I enjoyed the fresh country air and wide array of bird songs found in the great outdoors. I also had a wonderful swim in the Atlantic Ocean. At night I saw more stars than I’ve seen in quite a while. Whereas once I would have found this point arguable, I figured out during my recent vacation that there are a lot more ways to get full than through stuffing myself with food.