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Recently, one of my friends sent this quote with
a book reading announcement for the author Chinua Achebe: "One of the
truest tests of integrity is its blunt refusal to be compromised." It
resonated with me so much that I had to grab it and use it in my email
signature. Throughout my life integrity
has been a unifying theme. It is a
motivator, a consideration, guiding force and inspiration. Integrity is about
being true to your self—being authentic.
It is why I chose to become a writer and an artist. It has also kept me from doing some things
and encouraged me to quit doing some other things I have been fully immersed in.
About a month ago someone said something to me
that was so rude, fundamentally destructive, hurtful and unexpected that it
pierced me. Shaman know we are (at least
most of us) punctured by a variety of wholes inflicted on the journey of the
life passage. This one whole got me to
thinking. Your soul is something you
come into this world with and it is the only thing with which you will leave. Would I allow someone to say something so
negative and destructive that it could pierce and injure my personal sense of
identity, even if allowing them to say those sorts of things enabled me to make
money? The answer is a resounding no.
Integrity and sense of self are wrapped around my soul. When one of the
elements in that trilogy takes a hit, they all suffer. Internal suffering leads
to illness whether it shows itself as being spiritual, psychological or
physical. No person, whatever their position, should have the power to make us
sick in any way.
I have closed what was seemingly a promising and
exciting chapter in my life. It is
always sad when closure comes but typically it is for the best. Changes are
frightening but they can also be exciting.
I look forward to seeing what the universe has in store next. As a writer, I know that there are many new,
promising and exciting chapters just waiting to be written. Now I have the
positive space and nurturing environment needed to write them.
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While teaching painting and drawing at the School of the Art Institute, I was always drawn to the Codex Borgia . Sadly, seldom did I actually find ways of incorporating that gorgeous, ancient, illustrated manuscript into my lesson plans. I would just go through the book of images and savor them on my own. Now I understand why it was calling out to me. It is the tool of healers, diviners and scribes--it contains prophesies. It is going to take a while, still, but some day I will understand the lessons it seeks to teach me. Now in "Mama Nature's Spiritual Guide to Weight-loss" as I write, I am finding my book is being fleshed out by Aztec and Mayan deities. They just showed up and wanted in. I find myself questioning their appearance and loving it all at the same time. Pictured above is Aztec Goddess, Xochiquetzal, pronounced Sho-chi-ket-sal. Her name is in the language Nahuatl. The first part Xochitl (flower or to flower) and the second Quetzal (bird of splendid fe...
I can relate to this post in so many ways... thanks so much, I needed to read it this morning, all my life I´ve been dealing with this issue, with my need to keep my integrity and -as you- I have the feeling that I am opening a gateway to a new -much more promising- chapter.
ReplyDeleteI can relate to this post in so many ways... thanks so much, I needed to read it this morning, all my life I´ve been dealing with this issue, with my need to keep my integrity and -as you- I have the feeling that I am opening a gateway to a new -much more promising- chapter.
ReplyDeleteZena, I'm so glad you found this post then this morning. Glad also you can relate. The artistic process can seem very solitary at times. Thank goodness for blogs! Closure is always difficult but it is also true that we have to close out on the old sometimes to make way for what is new!
ReplyDeleteGood for you and many happy wishes for you to come ~ Inspiring post ~ ^_^ ~ Let Go, Let Be and Attitude of Gratitude have become my mantras for this year ~ practicing everyday and you reminded me again ~ thanks ^_^
ReplyDeleteA Creative Harbor: You're so welcome. I love your mantras. Will try to incorporate them into my life.
ReplyDelete"One of the truest tests of integrity is its blunt refusal to be compromised." Love the quote, but it reminds of Congress and what they all believe Integrity is apparently. LOL Best wishes on your new book. Post to WC the pitch for it when you have it done. I'd love to see it.
ReplyDeleteDelores, hmmmm, I hadn't thought of Congress but I can sort of see what you mean. I'll be happy to post to Writer's Circle when the book is completed. I'm getting there. Planning on working on it all day today!
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